75 Hard Day 1 Journey to Summer

 They (being the collective) say summer bodies are made in winter and the kitchen. Today is January 1, 2022 the day that resolutions are at their all time high, everyone is excited for the new year and hte hope it brings before reality and cynicism hits and their person narrative reminds them that their goal takes hard work and sacrifice...(takes deep breath after that long sentence) 95% of resolutions are abandoned by the first week when the running monologue in people's heads talk them out of whatever it is they were striving for. I can say all this because I was one of them. I have made countless resolutions that I quickly gave up when I couldn't hack it or my confidence was shaken.

My name is irrelevant... most call me Faith...or Brat depending. 3 months ago I was underwhelmed with life, didn't have a direction, or goals, or hope for my future. 9 months ago I was SURE that surgery was the answer to all my woes and that it would FIX me. It was going to save my life and everything after that was going to be sunshine and roses. NEWSFLASH! Surgery especially elective surgery is expensive and more insurances will not cover it.

Added to that, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. I immediately thought my life was over I would never beat this I was a total defeatist. Through the summer I obsessed about my problem agonizing about why I just couldn't lose weight, victim mentality at its finest! I made an appointment with a weight loss specialist dr. They immediately wanted to put me on medication and changed my diet ( which definitely was needed I survived on junk food) except the medicine made me sick and the diet culture gave me anxiety. 

After my first lack luster weigh in appointment I saw an email for a challenge put on by Supplemental Superstores. I thought about it for weeks, worried I wouldn't be able to follow through. Eventually I decided I would never get better if I didn't put in the work and took the plunge and signed up! This was early October and I was PUMPED! As of this date I have lost 10 lbs, which isn't a lot but its more of a change than I have seen in a long time!

As with anything, weight loss takes a personality and mental shift. Within the first month of the challenge I went from not being able to stand for 30 minutes to working out for 45 minutes to an hour at a time. Mostly walking and Beat Saber. I was doing nothing with my day to being consistently active every day. I was eating mostly junk to being more conscience about what I was putting in my body and to me that was a HUGE win.

As per usual I got the flu and pneumonia right before Christmas. Normally that would be it, end of motivation and of program. But, this time was different. I stayed the course and stayed tough. I knew where I was headed and nothing was going to stand in my way. 

That leads to today the beginning of the most challenging thing I have ever done. 75 Hard the challenge of mental toughness. It's not a workout program its challenging yourself to do the things on the list every day no exceptions. 

2022 will be the year I beat the odds. To develop mental toughness and grit. My kids will see me win. I will rise above. The old me was judged and found wanting now its time to change my circumstances.